La vie en Rose

when he takes me in his arms
and speaks to me softly
I see life as rosy
he tells me words of love
everyday words
and it makes me feel
he came into my heart
a piece of happiness
for which I know the cause
He is for me, I am for him, in this life
he told me that - swore it for life
and as soon as I see him
I feel my heart beating

nights of love, never ending
Much joy which takes over
troubles, sadness, phrases
happy, happy to die

my eyes look down when he looks at me
I only see his mouth when he laughs
this is the portrait "as is"
of the man I belong to.
-Edith Piaf

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I don't want to be an annoying white girl.
I don't want to be sucked in by every guy that talks of love.
I don't want to be who you want me to be.
I don't want to have a personality pre-made for me.
I don't know who I am yet.
But I know what I want.
I want to make a difference in the world.
Do something that will change peoples lives.
I want to be real with people.
To speak my mind without having it thrown back in my face or ignored.
I want every word i say to mean something.
Not just useless banter used to make yourself look clever.
I want to be real I want to be real I want to be real.
I don't want to be a plastic doll like the rest of you.
Waiting to be positioned in the shop window.
I know I have to try.
I can't just sit here restlessly.
But I will.
I will sit here with my mouth shut and my hands tied behind my back.
Waiting.

Pretty 3.0

Make pretty or attractive: "she'll be all prettied up in an hour".

Why do we have to get prettied up? Why cant we be liked for who we are without the makeup and creams and makeovers... Make-to create. Over-to cover up whats underneath.

Adjective:

Attractive in a delicate way without being beautiful.

Sure you're pretty, but you're not BEAUTIFUL. There is 

always something higher that we want after we get what we thought we wanted.

Adverb:

To a moderately high degree; fairly: "He looked pretty fit for his age".

So for your age you have to look a certain way? "Young Looking" is the best?

Noun:

An attractive thing, typically a pleasing but unnecessary accessory:

 "He buys her lots of pretties—rings and things".

Synonyms:
adjective. nice - handsome - beautiful - fine - lovely - fair

Pleasing by delicacy or grace

b : having conventionally accepted elements of beauty

c : appearing or sounding pleasant or nice but lacking strength, force, manliness, purpose, or intensity 

a : miserable, terrible (a pretty mess you've gotten us into)

Pretty

can mean miserable and terrible. I think that is the best definition.

Pretty

I just want to be
Pretty
I just want you to think that I'm
Pretty
I want you to hold on for a sec
And just glance my way
Because maybe you'll think
"Huh, she's
Pretty"
Then maybe you'll like
Me
But you kinda have to know
I exist
first

:D

OK
So I like you
And there's nothing i can do about it
Should i do anything about it?
Well there's nothing i can do about it anyway...
Or is there?
It's nice to have
Someone to look forward to seeing
Someone who makes me happy randomly
And just by seeing them
My stomach does a little
Flip-flop

Lunch

People only talked to me because of him
They wanted to know the latest drama
Because really and ultimately
That is all they really care about
It did't matter how it was affecting me personally
They only cared if he was gonna sit at my
Lunch table that day or not
How was it affecting me
I was completely miserable
If I am risking my personal safety at home
To be with a guy
That guy could at least make me happy
But no
So far I am only happy single.
But maybe someday a guy will make me happy and i wont
Be miserable
With him.

Thought?

Me?
Is that who you are talking to?
You think I am important enough to listen to?
To hear my thoughts on life.
Overlooked so many times.
Just used to bellittlement.
(Not sure if thats a word)
Aaahhh but it is like fresh air
Coming from a a small window of opportunity and love.