One of These Days

Some day my life will take a huge turn for the better. I will wake up and not want to climb under a rock. The sorrows of my heart will be heard, and the voices in my head will cease to exist. One of these days, I'll be happy; genuinely happy. For now I'll settle for being ok.
Ok is lying in bed hoping the phone will ring. Ok is knowing that this particular hell cannot last for forever. It's a prayer that someday I won't have to try so hard. Ok. It's, well, ok.

Ouch

Know that feeling when it hurts so bad
You wanna cry
Let it all out
But you know they'll be angry,
If you shout.

You see everyone says they're there
For me.
And I know that they want
To be.
But deep inside they can't handle it.
Neither can I.

So don't feed me your lies.
Everything will not be okay.
I have no reason to feel this way, but I do.

And you don't REALLY wanna hear it.
Let's not kid ourselves.