Whoa. I haven't blogged in a minute. Sorry about that, my dear readers. (All two of you?) I guess you can say I've been busy. But I bet you're just dying to know what's knew. So I'll make you a list.
1. With great sex comes pregnancy scares:
None of them have been legit. I think it's just me being a little paranoid Christian girl. I keep going, "God has got to get back at me at some point, right?
2. Sex makes you happy?:
It does. For a while. But then it just drives me mad. I can smell it, taste it. I'm always longing for more. The touch of his hands. His sent. The taste of his lips on mine. The warmth that comes from body on body. The tenderness after. I think that's the best part. Crawling into his lap after and going to sleep to the sound of his deep, even breathing.
3. I will always be royally fucked up:
Depression. Thoughts of cutting. The urge to purge. It all resurfaces. I've cried EVERY DAY for the past two months. Am I ridiculous or what?
4. I quit my job:
Well technically I'm taking a long vacation so I can play soccer for my schools team. I play right fullback and I dare say that I'm pretty badass. I miss the kiddies though. I can't wait to be a momma :)
5. Love is something that should come naturally. Relationships, however... Those you have to work on.
I've definitely learned that first hand. Everyone sees Mark and I as this perfect couple, but we're far from it. No one sees the incredible about of work and tears that goes into the incredible union they witness. Behind the scenes, things get a little hostile. Mark is an asshole plenty of times, and I'm a bitch more often than not. But I think we love each other enough to stick it out. I think Markell Tishawn Turner could be the one.
